Good evening Gents
Some of you will be aware that around late September of 2016 I had an allergic reaction to some new medication I was starting to take for a stomach problem. Unfortunately this caused me to collapse and after spending a short time in ITU in a coma I woke up to very poor mobility, balance very poor resulting in spending a lot of time on the floor instead of my feet, severe pain in my legs, feet and ankles and eyesight affected enough to now where glasses for long distance (If I was a dog I would have been put down). I have been told it is possible damage to my brain which has affected mobility, balance and sight.
To be honest this has been hard especially as a family but it has brought us closer together. It has been tough as getting about now is via a wheelchair, crutches around the house but climbing the stairs to use the toilet, bathroom and get to bed has been very tough, resulting in falls, both up and down stairs, sleeping or I should say more like lying on the couch most nights as sleep does not come well, the odd accident due to my stubbornness not to use a commode (adult potty), and tears when I have had no choice, and if you shook me I would rattle due to the 31 tablets I take daily.
So my apologies to those whom I have neglected recently. I just need time as I am struggling both physically and mentally, coping with this new situation.
I have started Physiotherapy which I attend weekly and exercises I do on a daily basis, the young ladies have looked after me but push me hard and I need it at times and it can be gruelling work but I know it keeps my muscles from wasting away in my legs. I now have a car which has hand controls so I can get out and about once more, it has boosted my morale and with the help of my new wheelchair and a hoist fitted to the vehicle to help me get the wheelchair in and out, well I was like a kid in a sweet shop the first day I got it. House is like a small hospital now with walkers and crutches, commode, and various other equipment. Finally got money sorted which again has made a difference and we have been told we have got the house we applied for so I can now get a stair-lift fitted and hopefully we can move in within the next 6 weeks.
On the whole I know days are hard for me and coping can be difficult but I think I need to now look to get back into things. My war gaming has taken a nose dive also and even with pushing from Kelly my partner, I have lost interest but I hope to return to it soon as I have something in mind which I intend to pursue. I am hoping now to get back to the NWC and John if you still require a chief of staff well I would be honoured to jump back in (oh if only), if not I can finish a few things I started, email me at my outlook address if you wish to discuss things further.
I have a Sun Tzu quote as part of my signature, it says "If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat. If you know neither the enemy nor yourself, you will succumb in every battle." For a while I did not know myself or my enemy and I struggled with defeat at every turn, but now I am starting to get to know myself, my limitations and also new possibilities and I know that my disability is not a difficult enemy to overcome but one that only tests you and makes you stronger and I am slowly not fearing the many battles ahead or their outcome but taking each day as it comes and dealing with it and fighting the battle put before me regardless of its outcome.
And now I will bid you all a good evening as my tea is calling a mountain of stairs to then climb.
Salute
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